As many of you have pointed out- I haven't been around lately. My last post was at the beginning of June, but to be honest, my mind hadn't been here for a long time before that. In the last few months of posting and trying to get back to a diet after my thesis, I felt like I was going through the motions, both with my diet, and with my posts. What had been a pleasure to write felt like an obligation, and the theme of my blog seemed stale to me. Blogging felt a little like wearing some one else's underwear- intimately uncomfortable. I spent a lot of time in those panties squirming around trying to make them fit until I realized- they just didn't- and weren't going to anytime soon.
I continued for a while thinking that was a bad thing- thinking I was going back to my previous habits before starting my healthy living journey. I changed my lifestyle a year ago to become healthy, and obviously I was changing back. I struggled to "get back" to the health conscious, calorie counter I was. At some point, after counting points and calories, taking pictures and not having time to post them, and putting on a few pounds, I realized that "going back" wasn't really an option- at least not in the way I got there the first time. My lifestyle had changed, and I learned the hard way that my diet and journey to health had to change with my lifestyle.
I've been thinking about how my lifestyle has changed and what it means moving forward. I know that I still want to lose weight. I know that I still want to push myself physically. I know that I want to learn new things and share them with others through my blog. I also know that I have a full time job plus now where I don't set my own schedule or ever have down time. Some days I work 12+ hours without notice and without a second to calculate what's going in my mouth. By the time I get off work, its a choice between dinner out and enough sleep after cooking because its around 9pm. (Can you guess which wins?)
So now, I need to learn how to manage my new lifestyle and make it work with the other things I want. I've redirected the theme from running to food since that's the first thing I'm going to try and manage. I live in Charlottesville, VA, one of the greatest places on earth (WAHOOWA!), and want to incorporate the flavor of my life here into my blog. Charlottesville and its surrounding landscape provide so much of my inspiration for food and fitness which I love, but haven't tapped into expressing here. I'm hoping to include more local zest and reviews, as well as my general progress on my fitness journey. The theme will likely evolve as I go- but this is a start on something I can be excited about and keep me motivated to focus on Running Out of Me.
I hope you stick around and see where this takes me!