Confessions and Resolutions

Now I lay me down to sleep,

I pray the Lord my secrets keep;

That if I die before I wake,

No one know I ate that cake.

Yes, I'm sad to say that could very well have been my prayer these last few weeks. Since I left you, I have not been to a weight watchers meeting, I have not been counting points/calories, I did not get much done on my thesis, I do not know how much I weigh, I have not written or followed up with you, and I did not exercise regularly. However, I have made it to every mellow mushroom pint night, I did get french fries almost every day this week, I did read The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, I did finish book 4 of Harry Potter (again), I went out drinking every other night, I had a ton of fun, and I'm pretty sure I watched every football game ever in the last two weeks.

So, where does that leave me? Lots of places to be honest. I get knots in my stomach every time some one asks me how my thesis is going. Honestly- every time. I still have the same cold I've had for two weeks because I went out drinking instead of healing. I feel guilty when I look at my New Year's resolutions scribbled on my white board vowing to loose 50 lbs through weight watchers this year. I thought I was going to cough up a lung on my last run of only 3 miles.

So acountabila-bloggies, please forgive me. I am back and I have some resolutions for you. These are really painful for me so bear with me.

1. I am registering for a 5k. No excuses anymore, now I have to get my butt outside and run so I don't look like a fool when a 60 year old beats me. There are 2 on 10/16 here in Cville and I'm going to do one of them.
2. I am counting points. At least 6 out of 7 days a week.

And the real kicker.....

     3. I am giving up alcohol for a month except for one day (my birthday). 

Wow. Its written. I am going to regret this the second I post it, but here's to making a lot of progress on my goals this month- running my first race, getting a rough draft of my thesis out, and losing some weight!

Say a prayer for me!!

C